Cool down, pui pui... cool down

Bad news... I received bad news this morning before work... And tat news pissed me off... It spoils my moood today.. A fren of mine was supposed to pass me a sum of money to buy a bday present for Tyng... But unfortunately, tat wun be happening I guess... Now what am I gonna do??? Zam skipped his work to accompany me to buy tat present... Now what amI gonna tel him??? I dun hav money to buy... Mum wun allow me to use my credit card as she say everytime I use it to buy something which is shared by many ppl, I get so pissed off with da amount of ppl sharing, da amount of money n so on as I'm always not sure who is sharing... I wasnt da 1 who suggest to buy tat stuff, I wasnt da 1 who find all da ppl myself... If I's da one who find all da ppl by myself, evrything will be ten thousand times easier... Hmmm... Cool down, puipui... Dun get too angry here...
Come to think of it, what Ash told me da other nite was quite true.. I shud stay away from all this since I'm always blur about what's happening... I shud jus pay watever they wan me to pay n not buy n ask them to pay... Well, I can say... This is da last n final time I'm doing this... I've learnt alot of lesson from this... Not gonna do it anymore... It pissed me off everytime...
I wasnt that blur in da begining.. I wasnt worry bout anything in da begining... I found quite a few ppl sharing wit me but suddenly, got more ppl came in... I start to get blur n worry by then... Anyway, da thing tat I'm worry of starts to happen... Haih...
Maybe I'm jus not meant to do this all...
Anyway, dun get angry, pui pui... Everything will be jus fine... Its not my fault tat this is happening isnt it??? Pls tell me its not my fault.. I've apologize to Tyng so many time.. Even Tien called to comfort me... I'm so sorry...