Keima

I was feeling joyous to go visit my godma yesterday to pass her mooncakes as it is gonna be mid autumn festival. I ask her if she's working or not so that I can go to her office to visit her, but she said she's on leave, ask me to go to her house instead. Then when she called me in the morning (I was still sleeping), she said they were going out to eat breakfast, ask me to meet them there. I didn't know Mui che and Kam koko were back in Penang as they seldom comes back unless there is public holiday and long weekend. They are both very busy people. I felt weird. I reach the restaurant first and waited for them to come. When keima walked in, she looked weak and keep coughing. I thought she was sick. Then we started talking and eating until the very end, keima said to me, "if u wanted to see me, see me quick and often now or else u won't get the chance to see me anymore". I got shocked but remain positive to ask "why?". Then she turn away and I knew smth must be wrong, I hoped its not what I think it is. It was when I heard her sobbing, I turned to look and she was crying and I look at everyone else, they were crying too. I turned back to my own food, looking down all the time, I did not ask what happen as I too, will break down. I was only praying and hoping that it was not as bad. After a while, koko said to me that "ur keima's cancer has spread". I kept quiet trying very hard not to cry until the very end of the breakfast. I did not ask for details as I just couldn't open my mouth and ask without crying. Mui che ask me to ask mum to call keima, take mum to visit her. Although I did not ask how bad it is, I knew enough that it will not be good once cancer spreads. Until I heard keima said she was going to the bank with Mui che to do transfer of accounts and names, I knew keima won't be living in this world for long or she won't be in good shape to do this a little later. So I knew what it means. I tried very hard not to break down until I reach carpark. That is when I couldn't resist anymore, I started crying then. I tried to call mum but she didn't pick up. So after a while, I drove to her office as she want's to go to the bank. I was crying all the way and wasn't really paying full attention on the road. That is when the car infront of me suddenly stopped as there was a kid running out. I brake as soon as I can but the car couldn't stop in time before I hit the car infront. It was a bad day. Mum and her colleagues, Irene and Siva came to get me and took me back to her office. I told mum about keima's condition. Ask her to call keima. That is when I knew that the cancer has spread to her lungs and liver and thats the worst that can happen. Why?? Later I went home, I couldn't do anything, I don't know what to do. I stayed home alone until time to fetch mum back from work and repair the car. I felt helpless, what can I do now? Keima had a lump in her breast when she was young, it turns out to be fine then 5yrs ago, she had breast cancer, had operation to remove it and went through chemo. I was there with her during that time and I knew how bad it was. I thought after that, she'd be fine. But now this. What can I do to help her?? She's my keima, she watch me, took care of me since I was born, my only keima~

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