Saturday, February 25, 2017

Mom

Sis and I planned a trip to Tokyo, Japan in May this year as dad wanted to go to a trip with us but he was expecting it to be a family trip. However, mum didn't want to join as so, she will be going with sis and I in October 2017 which we cant let dad knows about it until the very last minute. I really wanted a family trip with sis, mum and dad but I can't force mum to do it if she's not happy about it and what's the point if she won't be able to enjoy the trip at all? Even having a meal with sis, mum and dad is super rare nowadays. I think it will only happen once or twice a year. They are acting like a divorce-on-a-bad-term couple but got together for he sake of their two daughters once a year. The problem is they are not divorce at all. Long distance relationship eventually drew them apart and I guess we are so used to just the three of us at home, living together and doing everything together that mum felt that we don't need him here all the time and that whatever he does, does not suit us and will only be troublesome. I know it's not fair to treat dad this way but if I had to choose, I will side with mum as she is the one who is with us all this time, from giving birth, to feeding to educating to supporting, emotionally and financially, sis and I owe alot to mum. While dad is away earning money, he doesn't earn enough to feed us all and mum had to carry the burden of that so in that perspective, it is not fair to mum also as a married women with parents and kids to take care of. And that's how I was so determine to provide a comfortable life to mum. I can't afford to give her a luxurious life but at least I can make her comfortable.
Back to the trip in May 2017, I look forward to having a daddy and daughters time with dad during that week and we will definately leave a lot of happy memories. It is hard to hide all those trips we plan with mum from dad. Not telling him until the very last minute and telling lies about the trip such as saying that its a present for mum, we got vouchers, mum is paying for the trip and its mum's company trip, we just tag along and all those. I felt guilty telling all those lies to dad and I know he will get hurt as we were leaving him out all the time when we are supposed to be a family. I'm sorry dad! I was unable to find a solution to fix your relationship with mum, maybe I didn't try hard enough as I was only acting as a middle person between both of you. I just didn't want to force mum doing things she doesn't like especially when her priorities has always been sis and I, she has given up everything for us. I can't be so selfish to force her going to this trip which I know she will just keep quite and feeling irritated and annoyed all the time when she should be enjoying Japan. Dad, lets have a wonderful trip in May!

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