She kept it all

I went to Keima's house last Saturday to clean up her house as nobody is staying there, we think it's best we go and clean it regurlarly. Keima would want it to be clean and tidy. While mum was cleaning, I went to look around. Saw a few photo albums and saw all the memories I had with Keima. Most of our pictures were during Chinese New Years last time when I went to stayover. Keima kept it very well, its all still in good condition. Also, I found alot of stuffs that I gave Keima, she kept it all. I dont even remember all that but she kept it. I felt so bad now that I didnt love her enough while she has been cherishing everything I gave her. Everything, most of them were just some useless crap. Even an envelope which I wrote when I was little, my aweful handwritting with aweful meaningless words join together. She even kept that in her photo album. I'm so sorry Keima. I should have done better!
Yesterday was tough. It was that time of the week that Keima left us. I cant stop myself from crying, I was just very depressed. I couldnt eat or talk and I feel like puking. I used to visit Keima regularly on Sundays and we would spend the whole afternoon there with Keima. Until she got really sick, mom and I would go 4-5times a week. Now that Keima is no longer with us, I dont know what I'll do during Sundays. I just felt sad and depressed.
Keima, I miss you so much!!